Watch the Sky --Something Corporate

I'm lost at sea, the radio is jamming, but they won't find me
I swear it's for the best, and then your frequency is pulling me in closer till I'm home
and I've been up for days, I finally lost my mind,
and then I lost my way, I'm blistered but I'm better
and I'm home

I will crawl, there's things that are worth giving up, I know, but I won't let this get me,
I will fight, you live the life you're given with the storms outside,
somedays all I do is watch the sky

This room's too small, it's only getting smaller, up against the wall,
I'm slowly getting taller, in this wonderland, your skin feels so familiar
and I'm home

I'll crawl, there's thing that are worth giving up I know, but I won't let this get me,
I will fight, you live the life you're given with the storms outside,
somedays all I do is watch the sky, and somedays
all I do is watch the sky

and I think I, I could use a little break
today was a good day
and I think I, I could use a little break,
but today was a good day

...and it's a deep sea, in which I'm floated, and still I sink to think that I must...

crawl, there's things that are worth giving up I know, when you can't bare to carry me,
I'll fight, you live the life you're given with the storms outside
and somedays all I do is watch the sky
today was a good day
today was a good day...

Karli Jo & I ((after I dyed my hair! ;)

karli jo, cat, ME, & rach before going out to dinner =)

karli & I with our Lemon Faces ;-D

It's been one of those days..

i think i noticed when things started to change. the hugs were quicker, the phone calls shorter, and they weren`t everynight. we didn`t hurry to the place where we said we`d meet. the "i love you's" felt more like a forced routine, and really had no meaning. when we saw eachother, the smiles weren`t as bright or as big. our thoughts weren`t only of eachother. we seemed uninterested. we felt unloved. we had too many doubts

i`m not a perfect girl .. my hair doesn`t
always stay in place, and i spill a lot of
things. i`m pretty clumsy and sometimes
i have a broken heart. <|3 my friends & i
sometimes fight and maybe some days
nothing goes right but when i think about
it and take a step back, i remember how
(amazing) life truley is and that maybe..
just maybe, i like being UNPERFECT

dont let anyone ever promise you that they won`t 
ever hurt you because at one time or another it
will happen. the real promise is if the time you
spend together will be worth the pain in the end

WE JUST HAVE T0 ACCEPT THAT PE0PLE ARE
G0iNG T0 STAY iN 0UR HEARTS EVEN WHEN THEY
D0NT STAY iN 0UR LiVES..

Life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that. But life is about who you love, and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion. It's about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they truly are

you assume that i'm fine, but you don't know how
to read between the lines. I swing from moody & callous
to giddy & humerous in point-one second. That's
not because i'm easy going or feeling guilty for being
off-hand with you. It's lack of confidence & self esteem.
It's trying to fit in & trying to hide the scars at the same
time. Maybe i'm doing a good job; & that's why you don't see.

if youu dress nicely, he says you`re a snob. if youu dress sexy, he says you`re a slut. if youu argue with him, he says you`re stubborn. if you`re quiet, he says you`re stupid. if youu call him, he says you`re needy && clingy. if he calls youu, he says youu should be grateful. if youu don`t love him, he`ll try to win youu. if youu love him, he`ll leave youu. if youu don`t fuck him, he`ll say youu don`t love him. if youu do, he`ll say youu`re easy. if youu tell him your problems, he`ll say you`re irritating.  if youu don`t , he`ll say youu don`t trust him. if youu lecture him, he`ll say youu`re bitchy. if he lectures youu, it`s because he "cares". if youu break a promise, youu can`t be trusted. if he breaks it, he had to. if youu cheat, he`ll expect it to be over.  if he cheats, he expects to be given another chance either way ..

no more pictures for me =(

yeeeea, I stayed at Torrie's Saturday night with some people after our little *black & white* party and umm I woke up the next morning to find my camera missing along with Ky's!! Im not going to lie I was really depressed about it..lol but there is nothing I can do now but buy another one eventually! & I had some goooood pictures on there too. ha

Anyways..

Besides all that drama, my weekend was GOOOD ;)

Nothing going on this week besides Tournament games & when those are done, i'll finally be done with cheerleading this year! & then on to soccer conditioning!

as for today I have a lot of cleaning to do & then i'll probably lay around all day =)

ASH*

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Ky & I @ good ol' wal-mart

Rach & I on the bus ;)

Stace, Torr, & Myself ;)

Me & Linds

Me & my sister =)

Me & Rach ;)

Me & Linds ;)